haix…..

I already don’t know what else should i put as my ‘title’ le..

At first creating this blog, not becoz i wanna fill it up with complaints only.

I thought i could happily blog interesting stuffs with interesting titles relating to my job.

Apparently for the past 2 months, it isn’t.

Few days ago someone (i forgot who, but someone not close to me) asked me will i choose to give up my studies or give up my job?

I replied: Job.

I asked myself tonight,

Who am i to deserve these?

Why am i deserving these?

Why is it so unfair?

Why other colleagues don’t have to face so much nuisance and problems, why they don’t have to be crazily busy?

And why all other jobs in other companies, although have it’s difficulties or disadvantage, but at least they’re not super busy, they can work quietly and peacefully and get their job done well?

It’s all because i’m working in SOIL BUILD PTE LTD, handling Accounts Payable.

I don’t care revealling e name anymore!

Maybe being sacked is also a relieve for me.

Then i also asked myself, do i really have to wait till next June fail all my 2 papers then i 甘願 辭職, after spending almost $3000 on school fees by then?

Maybe i won’t even pass the TAX this december, which we should have confidence in passing coz we took before.

And if i really fail and i did not do well in Taxation, it’s becoz of nth but my work.

I’m not giving myself excuses that i didn’t study during weekends or after work.

Becoz i’m back at work on weekend and public holiday, and i end work later than normal office hours.

Becoz i’m being disturbed continously by many many calls and a lot problems pop up so i’m so terribly tired after work.

Suddenly i have the very big phobia of going to work tomorrow..

I can imagine e suppliers kept calling me asking for payments, and part of them can’t get their cheques these few days coz i haven’t settle their problem invoice which is none of their biz, they should get their payment.

Can imagine them complaining, blaming me.

And last fri big boss didnt approve a lot of things that i put in.

Tell me how i should drag the thing till middle and end of November where they’re chasing since oct!!!!!

and… seeing my invoices, delivery orders keep pilling up and i have no time to match & key them…

and… it’s nov and i can’t see when can i do the Sep’s supplier recon statement.

My dad told me i’m not suitable for this job.

Because i can’t handle people chasing me for payment.

And

Because i SHOULD NOT BE LYING ALL THE TIME.

I remembered the 2nd or 3rd mth i’m working, i told colleagues before i felt bad of having to lie to suppliers all e time.

Yupie…. i really should not be lying all e time.

I feel bad doing so.

明明不是我的錯，爲什麽我得幫罪魁禍首擋他們的電話，爲什麽怪的都是我

我的工作責任真的應該包括一直接那些電話嗎？

Before we have to go down to sign up for another 2 papers, i’m still trying to find another way out……………………..

which doesn’t relates to accounts.

and

 

 

 

我真的不想干了！

feel like slapping the one who keeps dragging the due payment and landed us in all e horrible state of facing the supplier’s nasty comments.

 

每天躲在被窩哭的日子，我還要過多久？