sign…
long sign……………………………..
yesterday OT-ed till 11.45pm, reach hm ard 12.10am..
i reali question abt my working ability leh..
why is it like this..
i was reali so sad abt myself tat i could burst out crying anytime.
but still i smile n laugh in front of my colleagues, my self-control is soooo high.. ha..
i dun wanna let other ppl come n comfort me or console me or wad. i know my own feelings.
my mentor stayed back with me till midnight oso.
haix. she was suppose to hand me everything and she can dun need to care abt it anymore..
but she kept mentioning next mth she will not hav time to help me coz she’ll be taking over other jobs from other colleagues le.
and there’s a very very very big project coming up which means will hav lots of invoices coming in.
i dunno..
it’s bad to leave and throw back everything to my mentor and leave her alone or hav to teach new staff all over again, and my PR won’t be approved.
but isn’t it also bad to delay and drag the process, troubling ppl to help me all e time?
i dunnoo…
is it somewhere that i didn’t do well enough,
is it becoz my whole person is juz now suitable for this job,
is it…………………………………………………
i realli dunno…
wad will other ppl think me as now..
incompetent?
weak?
useless?
